what's the point of missing someone when you're not getting any closer?
what's the point of holding on to something behind if it only keeps you from moving on?
shouldn't we just let go of it and get over with it?
that's not fair the way it is.
you're looking backwards but you're moving forward.
that's unfair to your past - since it doesn't make sense for you to show your concern when you're not doinf anything to come back to it.
and you're missing all your future - since it's all passing by cause of you looking away from it.
and most of all it's unfair to you cause you're torn between.
and it's driving you crazy.
and the weidrest part of it is that you don't wanna let go.
you want to move on, to live your life, to enjoy it and make your future happen.
but the scariest thing is to lose this feeling you have now about past.
you know your future can be amazing, it's floating right in front of you, you can feel its soft tickling against your skin.
and all you have to do is to let your past go. and your future will happen to you. you know it. and it's not that frightening.
but it scares the hell out of you to leave the feeling behind.
it's not about hope or anything it may have to do with your future. not at all. it's the feeling you already have.
the idea of not having it to come back to, of not being able to remember it properly, of losing it is unbearable.
no, you'd do everything to keep it.
and here you are, right here in between.
masochistic and going crazy.