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i know one of leroy's coworkers, brian. i met him a couple of times at parties.
they're not that close but definitely like each other.
and i believed he was a programer. that's just the ticket.
i asked jared to find his phone number for me, cause they should have many friends in common.
jarr didn't like the idea of me getting into it again, but even less did he enjoy the idea of seing me like this any longer.
this weekend i spent indoors.
i cleaned the apartment, was working on my scientific articles and was listening to sting.
oh, yeah, and smoking.
alone.
no jared, no anybody.
every time he came over i asked him politely but insistently to go cause i wanted to be alone.
i didn't pay attention to what he was saying.
i was completely delusioned.
so jared didn't really have a choice, cause this guy really loves me as well as i love him.
we're way different, but got along somehow. and need each other.
like little wild animals huddling up one to another for warmth.
he got me brian's number.
i called brian this morning. of course he knew the whole deleting story and sounded offensive.
but must have sounded really desperate, cause he gave up and finally listened to me.
i begged him to work on the laptop and manage to find data on when the crucial changes have been made.
i really begged. iat that moment it really was a hanging matter.
he sighed and promised me to do his best. and let me know when he's done.
now i'm waiting.
yes, i'm a jealous bitch, but i didn't delete anything and i need leroy to know the truth.
and i called leroy before getting a call from brian, cause i couldn't wait any more.
but his cell was off, so i left a message on his answering machine.
i told him i missed him. and that i'm very jealous. and hate to see him with another girl, hate to even think about it.
that was fair, i thought to myself.
that's honest at the very least.
i was dying to tell him that.
regardless of the consequences.
they're not that close but definitely like each other.
and i believed he was a programer. that's just the ticket.
i asked jared to find his phone number for me, cause they should have many friends in common.
jarr didn't like the idea of me getting into it again, but even less did he enjoy the idea of seing me like this any longer.
this weekend i spent indoors.
i cleaned the apartment, was working on my scientific articles and was listening to sting.
oh, yeah, and smoking.
alone.
no jared, no anybody.
every time he came over i asked him politely but insistently to go cause i wanted to be alone.
i didn't pay attention to what he was saying.
i was completely delusioned.
so jared didn't really have a choice, cause this guy really loves me as well as i love him.
we're way different, but got along somehow. and need each other.
like little wild animals huddling up one to another for warmth.
he got me brian's number.
i called brian this morning. of course he knew the whole deleting story and sounded offensive.
but must have sounded really desperate, cause he gave up and finally listened to me.
i begged him to work on the laptop and manage to find data on when the crucial changes have been made.
i really begged. iat that moment it really was a hanging matter.
he sighed and promised me to do his best. and let me know when he's done.
now i'm waiting.
yes, i'm a jealous bitch, but i didn't delete anything and i need leroy to know the truth.
and i called leroy before getting a call from brian, cause i couldn't wait any more.
but his cell was off, so i left a message on his answering machine.
i told him i missed him. and that i'm very jealous. and hate to see him with another girl, hate to even think about it.
that was fair, i thought to myself.
that's honest at the very least.
i was dying to tell him that.
regardless of the consequences.