love is

[amelfa]

'You know, when you're young
everything feels like the end of the world.
It's not.
It's just a beginning'.
(c)

The best thing about being in love is this thought "i definitely should tell him" or "he'd love that" when you see something.
It fills you with tenderness and everything with such a special meaning and importance.

I just got home. My Moscow home which i got out of the habit of calling that way already.
And i don't wanna switch over to russian, i feel so much easier when speaking english.

We watched 'A lot like love' with Nijo back in Tokyo last evening, i asked him to find it. And when Emily answered to Ashton Kutcher's (who's hot by the way) offer to keep in touch with her brand phrase 'Don't. You'll ruin it', Nijo laughed and asked, 'So that's what this all was about?'. Probably. I don't even know his last name. And have no pictures of him on principle.
'I can look at Keanu Reeves whenever i want', i told him.
'Yeah, you can call him too, i'm positive'.
'Yeah, that's my advantage'.
'I can sleep with Sarah Michelle Gellar in turn', he added.
'Good luck, my japanese friend', i said.
'That's how you see friendship, i see', he smiled.
He was very manful during that goodbye scene, very mature, very dignified.
'I had a great time', i confessed.
'Me too, girl with a difficult name'.
'Stay cool, Nijo', i said.
'I prefer it when girls say that i'm hot, really. Take care, Am', he answered.
No contacts, just bright memories.
That wasn't that easy to be honest to go just like that. I attach myself to people and scenery easily, i get used to too fast. It's hard to leave it all behind, even though that's exactly how it was meant to happen.

I watched '17 again' during my flight. It turned out to be a good movie. And that Zac Efron guy is so hot despite being too sugary. That a little bit constrained smile and pixieish look do it's part. Oooh, Zac, Zac!
I watched 'Friends' and cried while looking at Chandler proposing to Monica.

I have the tickets to 10 best shows of Chekhov International Theatre Festival bought by my friend. That'd keep me in Moscow. And i just can't wait.

And i called Denis the moment i got home. He said 'Hi' and kept silent blankly waiting for me to say anything. I hated him for that. I hung up the phone. And that's the way it was over.
What a fast and obvious closure.

New life is about to start.
I just can't see it right now. But it's definitely somewhere.